The Creator of The Mind’s Escape

My name is Ariana Cruz. I’m new here and I’m very excited to start this blog!

There’s so much for me to write about from life experiences to full on rants on everyday topics. This space is for me to get into the habit of sharing and letting go of my past so I can move forward.

I’m not sure where this will take me but I’m ready for the journey and prepared for what’s to come. Hopefully you will feel just as comfortable sharing your similar stories and we can become a freeing community. So please feel free to join me on my adventure into this new blogging world. I hope to entertain and possibly relate to most of you as I dive deep into the parts of my mind I’ve kept locked away all this time.

More About Ariana Cruz.

I won’t get into too much personal detail so you can figure it out through each post. But what I will share is why I feel it is necessary for me to do this now.

As a 26 year old, I understand that I have yet to live. But seeing people not much older than me struggling to communicate and express themselves clearly is something I want to work on myself. I don’t want to get stuck in my ways and have excuses made for me by my loves. I want to be better now so later on I can have peace of mind.

One day I want to have kids and have them not worry about me. Have a husband that I can easily speak with about anything and we work out our issues. I’m at the point now that any problem I have I shut down. I allow my mind to go crazy thinking over all possible scenarios that could occur instead of just letting it happen in reality.

I have mastered the art of “speak when spoken to” that I just no longer speak when it has to do with the topic of me. Sure, you ask me what I want to eat and I’m going to give you an answer. But the moment you show signs of trying to get into my head, I panic and then nothing. Just like that my brain pushes the abort button and I find a way to retreat and even distance myself from others.

I am not proud of my behavior and I honestly feel bad for those around me. My boyfriend, for instance, is incredible and I am highly grateful for his existence. But there’s some times when I can’t help but believe I am far from ready to be in any relationship.

I want to be able to speak my mind, share my opinions, and let go of all my hurt and pain. Life is just too short to not be able to.

What I Hope this Blog can do for Us.

As I stated before, I want this to be a safe place for us to become a community. Sharing stories and releasing what is holding us back. I want anyone to come here and feel welcomed and respected.

I am the only one so far who will be writing these posts and monitoring the comments. If this blog does indeed become something bigger than myself, I would love your help in keeping it a safe place for everyone. Which includes having to ban those who are not being respectful and open. Everyone will get a second chance. A warning to keep the peace will be given and if broken again, you have to go.

I hope it will never come to this and we can all use this space for our own personal therapy. (And no I am not a licensed therapist or am I planning to be.) Also no one is forced to share or comment anything. In fact no one has to read anything on this blog but I will continue to post regularly.

Because at the end of the day, this is ultimately for me. I’m just sharing because I know there are people who can relate. I believe there are others who feel as though they have lost their voice. And if reading about my struggles brings comfort to them knowing they are not the only ones to have these feelings, then so be it. I am happy to help in this format.

Thank You!

I really appreciate everyone who stubbles upon my blog and takes a gander at what I have to say. Even if it is just my mom. Love you mom!! Thank you!!